Unfortunately, when I'm NOT at home, my temptation gets tested - much as it was not even an hour ago, and I stayed strong.
At the store, dropping off my prescription, and picking up a 4pk of S/F Rockstar, I see in my peripheral some soft cake-type cookies on sale. SALE (how do I turn down a good sale, for starters? That in and of itself takes great willpower!).
These cookies I'm familiar with - they're what I would c&s with back when my restricting was under control.
I had to fight not only the giant SALE sign a mere few feet away from me, but the growls from my stomach BEGGING for me to put those cookies in there.
Then, as I waited in line, I started to debate (as much as I try to keep myself distracted, I can't help but negotiate with myself). I could buy them and use them to c&s as I used to. No big deal!
But with my stomach being as angry as it is for neglecting it, I fear I might "accidentally" let some masticated bits slide down my throat.
It's only 1:40pm, back on my first day of restriction - I knew it would be tough. But thankfully I don't have to go out anywhere for a while. Maybe I can even just sleep (I had a procedure this morning anyways, so I am kinda weak and beat up) until it's time to head out.
And then I'll sip on a S/F Rockstar on my travels.
Supper might be tough - soup, perhaps? I might still have some broth somewhere....
Back to my little victory - yay me! Suck it, cakesters! No one wants your bullshit! (Not today, anyway!)
Pity, though - if I had to c&s, I'd rather it'd be on sale items instead of on some shit I have to pay full price for. But such is life, I suppose - if you want something bad enough, you've got to pay the price.
Nothing good in life is cheap (or easy) ;)
Today's life lesson! Now off to nap my stomach grumblies away!
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