...if there HAS to be one, is that I didn't gain.
Three days ago, I decided to bite the bullet and step on a scale. I hadn't done that since well before the holidays. I knew I did a lot of damage, I was just afraid to see exactly how much.
Well, as atrocious as it is, it's not as bad as I thought.
Still nowhere near my comfort zone, but I was relieved to not see the number on the scale that I had visualized in my head.
I'm still disgusted with myself.
So now that I'm officially tracking my numbers again, I am only down 0.5lb in 2 days. Frustrating, and expected, I suppose, since I'm not very active with my fucking injury holding me back. But 0.5lb loss is better than a gain, so if I have to find a silver lining, I suppose that's it.
Hey! I am considering a lifestyle like this. What is you motivation?
ReplyDeleteThis lifestyle isn't something I have CHOSEN for myself, more like it chose me. It's not like I just woke up one morning and decided to give it a whirl, it's the culmination of years of deep-rooted issues. That's my motivation - that's how I deal. It's a nightmare, to be honest. If you're not already dealing with any ED-related issues, I would strongly suggest you check out some other type of support system that promotes a healthy lifestyle for weight loss and portion control. Peace, Penny
ReplyDeletei agree! you don't want to be like, hate to say it, "us". food is so easy for regular people. get up eat food put on clothes do whatever... join a gym. get a meal plan. don't get an ED
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