The last time I severely restricted (stopping only just recently - around Christmastime, when families do their thang and get together and eat and drink), I was on the right track.

For the first time in a long time, my hubby would make comments about how good I looked. Not that he never did before, but now, he would do it more regularly.

My marshmallow hips were leaning out, my muffin top was almost non-existent.

Then along came wine and fruitcake, and my mindset shifted - "if I could do it once, and I know restricting works, then I'll allow myself to enjoy this time, in moderation, with my family's cooking, and just restrict again after the holidays."

Sounded like a good plan, only then my stomach became used to getting food.

And I haven't heard any WOW comments from the hubby lately.

And my muffin top has reappeared.

And I've started freaking out again - knowing what I was going to do was the easy part. But actually following through with restricting has been a bit of a challenge. My stomach won't shut up.

I know it'll be a bit of a fight, but if I did it once, then hell I will - no, HAVE TO - do it again.

I figured I should give my stomach something to break the fast and keep my metabolism up, so 1/4 c of Raisin Bran for a good 45 cal start to my day, and a 473ml can of Sugar Free Rockstar for a whopping 20cal on top of that.

Maybe I'll pick up some unsweetened almond milk on my way home from the doctor's this morning. Low cal liquid fast is what I'm craving.

That empty, hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach. Love it.

Here's some thinspo for the day - good for LeAnn Rimes for losing all her chubby and finding her inner ana. So beautiful!